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Saturday, December 31, 2005
The Year 2005
The year 2005 will pass in a few hours time,
I should say I had a fruitful year.
The chance to know myself better,
the chance to know ppl better.
Jan to May:
School starts as usual,
nth special, till got to know some really good friends.
thanks to high technology, MSN haha.
limin, hongseng, shao wei, gary , qing wen and many more.
because of them,
life in NTU is not as stressful as it is bah.
and coz of their intelligence,
I got some help too~ heee.
May to July:
Got a job that leads me thinking,
is accounting for me?
A job that allows me to learn,
and practice.
A job that makes me think.
July to August:
The most depressing months of the year,
However, I learnt.
Never have expectations,
though it is difficult not to set.
Be blessed on what comes by.
not be sad when it does not.
August to Sept:
This is when I realise that.
I got to leave people alone.
stop asking people why and be caring.
coz they might think that u are a hassle,
even though you are caring.
nth cause to have this thinking,
but suddenly it jus occur to me like this.
Sept to Oct:
Kaoz. start to worry abt school work.
That AB214. the tutor don like me at all.
but 214 buddies are unforgetable. hee~
projects deadline approaching.
nth seems to be done at all.
Kana whack by boss for not achieving.
Wao. Worry Period!
but of cause, got back a friendship which I long waited,
since JC time.
Glad to have you as a friend my dear friend once again. :)
VCD/DVD Craze:
Paris Lovers -> Full House -> many many more.
It will nv end.
coz there are too many good shows out there!
Stepping into Amazing Race 2006.
Know many friends.
See many way of working style.
Hope it will be a success!
Critical period: Jan to March!
Oct to Nov:
Exam period. IC0206 stuck me.
the feeling of confirmed fail!
so scary. The feeling of YOU MUST STUDY LIAO.
In the end, it did not really help to pull up my grades though.
Haha. But life goes on......
Nov to Dec:
A changed me.
A new hairstyle that I myself nv expect to try.
A new specs, thanks to Ada! :)
A new me i think.
Hope to be a better person.
A scary jobscope.
in the end was said to be an unsucessful one.
A new place to see how ppl really work.
How many faces can one person have.
I should said I can now control my emotions better.
Not that good. but better than last time.
The first time of enjoying supper with friend.
The first time going into many branded shops.
wao~ haa. Thanks to my colleague, Carolyn.
Learning to make decisions,
Learning to be more "hack care" on things.
Learning to be more optismistic.
Learning to take things more lightly.
All are improvement.
But not yet accomplished.
coz I know it will nv be perfect.
But of course,
this is also a period that I neglected
my hubby and friends.
But I hope I made up bits and pieces.
hee~
The New Year 2006
A new timetable,
5 days weeks. Yucks!
But for the sake of it.
I shall persist.
A new year.
New Hopes.
To continue to learn to be optimistic.
To continue to learn many many things
from my colleagues, friends and many many more.
To continue to be a good daughter.
To continue to be a good gf.
To continue to work and learn.
To continue to make more friends.
To continue to go out with my friends.
To continue to know them better.
To travel.
The urge of leaving Singapore for a few days are increasing.
JJ's concert. sth that I looked forward too.
To study Hard!
Something that cannot forget to do.
To be as happy as ever!
To stay cheerful.
and the lists goes on and on.
To all my friends:
Happy New Year and may the year ahead be fruitful to you too!
Cheers. Jia you! Good Luck. hee.
The year 2005 will pass in a few hours time,
I should say I had a fruitful year.
The chance to know myself better,
the chance to know ppl better.
Jan to May:
School starts as usual,
nth special, till got to know some really good friends.
thanks to high technology, MSN haha.
limin, hongseng, shao wei, gary , qing wen and many more.
because of them,
life in NTU is not as stressful as it is bah.
and coz of their intelligence,
I got some help too~ heee.
May to July:
Got a job that leads me thinking,
is accounting for me?
A job that allows me to learn,
and practice.
A job that makes me think.
July to August:
The most depressing months of the year,
However, I learnt.
Never have expectations,
though it is difficult not to set.
Be blessed on what comes by.
not be sad when it does not.
August to Sept:
This is when I realise that.
I got to leave people alone.
stop asking people why and be caring.
coz they might think that u are a hassle,
even though you are caring.
nth cause to have this thinking,
but suddenly it jus occur to me like this.
Sept to Oct:
Kaoz. start to worry abt school work.
That AB214. the tutor don like me at all.
but 214 buddies are unforgetable. hee~
projects deadline approaching.
nth seems to be done at all.
Kana whack by boss for not achieving.
Wao. Worry Period!
but of cause, got back a friendship which I long waited,
since JC time.
Glad to have you as a friend my dear friend once again. :)
VCD/DVD Craze:
Paris Lovers -> Full House -> many many more.
It will nv end.
coz there are too many good shows out there!
Stepping into Amazing Race 2006.
Know many friends.
See many way of working style.
Hope it will be a success!
Critical period: Jan to March!
Oct to Nov:
Exam period. IC0206 stuck me.
the feeling of confirmed fail!
so scary. The feeling of YOU MUST STUDY LIAO.
In the end, it did not really help to pull up my grades though.
Haha. But life goes on......
Nov to Dec:
A changed me.
A new hairstyle that I myself nv expect to try.
A new specs, thanks to Ada! :)
A new me i think.
Hope to be a better person.
A scary jobscope.
in the end was said to be an unsucessful one.
A new place to see how ppl really work.
How many faces can one person have.
I should said I can now control my emotions better.
Not that good. but better than last time.
The first time of enjoying supper with friend.
The first time going into many branded shops.
wao~ haa. Thanks to my colleague, Carolyn.
Learning to make decisions,
Learning to be more "hack care" on things.
Learning to be more optismistic.
Learning to take things more lightly.
All are improvement.
But not yet accomplished.
coz I know it will nv be perfect.
But of course,
this is also a period that I neglected
my hubby and friends.
But I hope I made up bits and pieces.
hee~
The New Year 2006
A new timetable,
5 days weeks. Yucks!
But for the sake of it.
I shall persist.
A new year.
New Hopes.
To continue to learn to be optimistic.
To continue to learn many many things
from my colleagues, friends and many many more.
To continue to be a good daughter.
To continue to be a good gf.
To continue to work and learn.
To continue to make more friends.
To continue to go out with my friends.
To continue to know them better.
To travel.
The urge of leaving Singapore for a few days are increasing.
JJ's concert. sth that I looked forward too.
To study Hard!
Something that cannot forget to do.
To be as happy as ever!
To stay cheerful.
and the lists goes on and on.
To all my friends:
Happy New Year and may the year ahead be fruitful to you too!
Cheers. Jia you! Good Luck. hee.
L . A . W . C . A . J
7:12:00 PM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Mmm. Today is register day.
Din have alot of problem.
because I am Kiasu.
haha. get the time slot that I wan.
actually they are not very good time slots,
only one is good time slot nia.
so don really have problem with it.
Ok. they are pretty fast.
edventure is up but the notes are not out yet.
anyway, saw the class photo.
everyclass got ppl I know.
hee. which is good.
happy too. at the same time got new faces.
so we can make more friends!
Yeah. Looking forward for school actually.
But at the same time alot of things to do.
such as...
Work, amazing race and studies.
side track is: my hubby, friends etc.
haha. but i think should be no problem ba.
I live everyday only once in my life.
i must treasure every min and secs,
and do wad I am suppose to do.
and wad I want to do.
I may be tiring myself.
But I have no regrets.
guess that is the most impt thing now ma.
no regrets on all decisions made.
Rest is indeed impt.
i still got a long time to work.
and I do not need to be working like nobody biz now.
But I have no regrets to work.
coz i know more ppl and get to foster friendships too.
indeed, i may be neglecting my friends and family.
but i think I make up.
I tried to meet up with them when I got time.
but sometimes they are not free.
I tried to company ppl whenever I have time.
Anyway I do not have many friends too.
haa~
I may be missing school life etc.
but i think I did not la.
coz i am not very interested in camps etc.
no guts to try. though i am very interested.
haa.
My private time is squeeze here and there.
sometimes i think i slack too much.
haa.
think many ppl will have different ways,
and thinking in how their time are spend.
But on and off.
Time is always sufficient for everyone.
coz god is fair he give us 24 hrs each.
thus, it depends how you used it.
If you choose to use it this way.
so be it. and no regrets. haha.
Today the whole entry is abt TIME.
haha. don know y got so much feelings abt it.
guess coz of reg ba.
haa.
Din have alot of problem.
because I am Kiasu.
haha. get the time slot that I wan.
actually they are not very good time slots,
only one is good time slot nia.
so don really have problem with it.
Ok. they are pretty fast.
edventure is up but the notes are not out yet.
anyway, saw the class photo.
everyclass got ppl I know.
hee. which is good.
happy too. at the same time got new faces.
so we can make more friends!
Yeah. Looking forward for school actually.
But at the same time alot of things to do.
such as...
Work, amazing race and studies.
side track is: my hubby, friends etc.
haha. but i think should be no problem ba.
I live everyday only once in my life.
i must treasure every min and secs,
and do wad I am suppose to do.
and wad I want to do.
I may be tiring myself.
But I have no regrets.
guess that is the most impt thing now ma.
no regrets on all decisions made.
Rest is indeed impt.
i still got a long time to work.
and I do not need to be working like nobody biz now.
But I have no regrets to work.
coz i know more ppl and get to foster friendships too.
indeed, i may be neglecting my friends and family.
but i think I make up.
I tried to meet up with them when I got time.
but sometimes they are not free.
I tried to company ppl whenever I have time.
Anyway I do not have many friends too.
haa~
I may be missing school life etc.
but i think I did not la.
coz i am not very interested in camps etc.
no guts to try. though i am very interested.
haa.
My private time is squeeze here and there.
sometimes i think i slack too much.
haa.
think many ppl will have different ways,
and thinking in how their time are spend.
But on and off.
Time is always sufficient for everyone.
coz god is fair he give us 24 hrs each.
thus, it depends how you used it.
If you choose to use it this way.
so be it. and no regrets. haha.
Today the whole entry is abt TIME.
haha. don know y got so much feelings abt it.
guess coz of reg ba.
haa.
L . A . W . C . A . J
11:49:00 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Looking Back 2005 (Part 1)
Mmm. Looking back.
I practically had no memories for semester 2 year 1.
coz i guess all I do is to study ba.
and have fun with my friends.
guess the only thing I rem is we do the AA101 proj at Jos house.
haha. Glad that we got good grades.
Yeah. and wad really goes wild is during semester break.
Having Special sem with huishan was fun!
It don sound like studying.
I do enjoy the period.
Then come sth that change my second part of the year.
My job.
A job that really give some work to temps.
really need some responsibility on the temps.
allow u to try wadever things u like.
fun and tiring. But i admire them.
Many said really don know wad I am doing at all.
Haha. I guess even till now i also have doubts.
A new business where nobody actually do.
and I step into the mine.
haha. But I am glad I joined.
I feel blessed abt it.
Being able to feel the importance in a company is pretty impt.
Not doing a normal admin work.
but of course every job does include admin work.
Alot said abt u don get paid high,
yet u are working like hell.
I guess I am sot de ba.
I like that. of course money is impt.
but friends and relationship is sth irreplacable at all.
Though very tiring.
I still enjoy it.
The project I am doing.
The feeling of a baby growing to a young adult make me smile.
the things u do. yes. I truely suffered.
but I learnt. and it is sth that I will nv experience again.
maybe I will. but at least now I know how to handle.
I really thank those who cared abt me,
concerned on what happened to me. Thanks.
Still got alot to say,
But I don know wad to type.
shall gather thoughts again.
write again next time.
haa. Merry X'mas to all!
Mmm. Looking back.
I practically had no memories for semester 2 year 1.
coz i guess all I do is to study ba.
and have fun with my friends.
guess the only thing I rem is we do the AA101 proj at Jos house.
haha. Glad that we got good grades.
Yeah. and wad really goes wild is during semester break.
Having Special sem with huishan was fun!
It don sound like studying.
I do enjoy the period.
Then come sth that change my second part of the year.
My job.
A job that really give some work to temps.
really need some responsibility on the temps.
allow u to try wadever things u like.
fun and tiring. But i admire them.
Many said really don know wad I am doing at all.
Haha. I guess even till now i also have doubts.
A new business where nobody actually do.
and I step into the mine.
haha. But I am glad I joined.
I feel blessed abt it.
Being able to feel the importance in a company is pretty impt.
Not doing a normal admin work.
but of course every job does include admin work.
Alot said abt u don get paid high,
yet u are working like hell.
I guess I am sot de ba.
I like that. of course money is impt.
but friends and relationship is sth irreplacable at all.
Though very tiring.
I still enjoy it.
The project I am doing.
The feeling of a baby growing to a young adult make me smile.
the things u do. yes. I truely suffered.
but I learnt. and it is sth that I will nv experience again.
maybe I will. but at least now I know how to handle.
I really thank those who cared abt me,
concerned on what happened to me. Thanks.
Still got alot to say,
But I don know wad to type.
shall gather thoughts again.
write again next time.
haa. Merry X'mas to all!
L . A . W . C . A . J
9:33:00 PM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Mmm. I am back from Malaysia.
From my younger cousin's wedding dinner.
apparently, I feel abit funny.
even if when I reached there,
I also feel funny.
On the way there,
calls have been flooding in with regards to work.
Mmm. I shall blog abt this sometime tml etc.
to talk abt the past 1 year.
happening year I would said.
Come back to the wedding.
Mmmm. I was pretty upset when nobody recognise me at ALL!
Don understand y.
I din wear so "kua zhang".
Maybe due to my hair and my new specs that stunned them.
Even if I greeted ppl,
nobody knows who am I.
So I decided not to greet anyone.
since nobody know me at all.
Laggie best,
people were stunned when they know is me.
DOh don wan to know y they think this way.
Anyway, the wedding dinner was abit messy.
when last min, this tends to occur ba.
My cousing looks tired.
then my mum told me that,
they had a BBQ yesterday nite to cele
& apparently they drank alot.
The bride is very beautiful.
to a extend that she don look 16 at all.
she look older than me.
Guess make up really change a person's age and appearance.
Looking back,
I really home they will last.
not that I think they won,
just that after all they are young.
they won know wad will happen at all later.
when the child grow up.
it is another burden.
with no financial stability.
wad do u expect.
my aunt to feed them.
yes she can.
but not forever. Hopefully he is aware of this.
and really grow up from this experience.
He is going to be father soon you know!
COngrats! I think he has got himself a good wife.
she is pretty and capable.
I think la. from her looks etc.
As usual, when you go for this kind of wedding.
ppl will start asking.
when is ur turn.
doh.As if. they think it is so easy to get married meh.
haha. I am still young.
career comes first ba. haha. *sorry hubby*hee*
and to be practical.
no money no talk!
haha. haiz. need to get back to slp le.
have not been slping at all lo.
work too much liao.
yesterday slp at 3am lo.
and morning wake up at 930 and yet the emails din stop coming in at all.
doh. give me a break.
haha.
Time to update the blog.
abt life for the past 1 year.
abt wad i wan coming year.
abt all my family and friends.
From my younger cousin's wedding dinner.
apparently, I feel abit funny.
even if when I reached there,
I also feel funny.
On the way there,
calls have been flooding in with regards to work.
Mmm. I shall blog abt this sometime tml etc.
to talk abt the past 1 year.
happening year I would said.
Come back to the wedding.
Mmmm. I was pretty upset when nobody recognise me at ALL!
Don understand y.
I din wear so "kua zhang".
Maybe due to my hair and my new specs that stunned them.
Even if I greeted ppl,
nobody knows who am I.
So I decided not to greet anyone.
since nobody know me at all.
Laggie best,
people were stunned when they know is me.
DOh don wan to know y they think this way.
Anyway, the wedding dinner was abit messy.
when last min, this tends to occur ba.
My cousing looks tired.
then my mum told me that,
they had a BBQ yesterday nite to cele
& apparently they drank alot.
The bride is very beautiful.
to a extend that she don look 16 at all.
she look older than me.
Guess make up really change a person's age and appearance.
Looking back,
I really home they will last.
not that I think they won,
just that after all they are young.
they won know wad will happen at all later.
when the child grow up.
it is another burden.
with no financial stability.
wad do u expect.
my aunt to feed them.
yes she can.
but not forever. Hopefully he is aware of this.
and really grow up from this experience.
He is going to be father soon you know!
COngrats! I think he has got himself a good wife.
she is pretty and capable.
I think la. from her looks etc.
As usual, when you go for this kind of wedding.
ppl will start asking.
when is ur turn.
doh.As if. they think it is so easy to get married meh.
haha. I am still young.
career comes first ba. haha. *sorry hubby*hee*
and to be practical.
no money no talk!
haha. haiz. need to get back to slp le.
have not been slping at all lo.
work too much liao.
yesterday slp at 3am lo.
and morning wake up at 930 and yet the emails din stop coming in at all.
doh. give me a break.
haha.
Time to update the blog.
abt life for the past 1 year.
abt wad i wan coming year.
abt all my family and friends.
L . A . W . C . A . J
12:48:00 AM
Monday, December 19, 2005
Yesterday din slp well at all.
not because of results release.
but because today is the first day of training for an India class I planned.
and as usual,
it cocked up. shitty.
doh. I am so angry lo that it cock up.
coz everything should be planned properly.
Then again, you know what happened.
when everything is going back to normal.
like courier again and fedex again etc.
then I realize this is not my fault.
this time, the problem lies on the trainer.
who din tell me what he wants,
and cause that I have to bear the fault.
nevertheless, suan le.
I think because of this cock up,
I learn alot of things and have deepen understanding of wad is it supposed to be.
ok. back to results.
I don know what I should comment.
I am disappointed with the results of coz.
judging that the results was pull down by the coursework.
abit sian.
but come to think abt it,
I did not neglect my school while I am working.
Ya, but hor. so many ppl score so well.
haiz. well shall not be so sad abt it.
I very kan de kai now liao.
coz no pt comparing with those siao one.
hahahaha.
Congrats to those who score very well!!!
not because of results release.
but because today is the first day of training for an India class I planned.
and as usual,
it cocked up. shitty.
doh. I am so angry lo that it cock up.
coz everything should be planned properly.
Then again, you know what happened.
when everything is going back to normal.
like courier again and fedex again etc.
then I realize this is not my fault.
this time, the problem lies on the trainer.
who din tell me what he wants,
and cause that I have to bear the fault.
nevertheless, suan le.
I think because of this cock up,
I learn alot of things and have deepen understanding of wad is it supposed to be.
ok. back to results.
I don know what I should comment.
I am disappointed with the results of coz.
judging that the results was pull down by the coursework.
abit sian.
but come to think abt it,
I did not neglect my school while I am working.
Ya, but hor. so many ppl score so well.
haiz. well shall not be so sad abt it.
I very kan de kai now liao.
coz no pt comparing with those siao one.
hahahaha.
Congrats to those who score very well!!!
L . A . W . C . A . J
10:27:00 PM
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Let me touch abt yesterday.
Mmm. went out with hubby to go shopping.
tried a few clothes.
in the end, decided not to buy any.
coz no money liao. haha.
haven got my pay yet leh.
saw a few bags that is pretty nice.
Guess, DKNY etc. doh.
don have that kind of money to buy sia.
Anyway hubby bought me a Titus watch.
haa. after he bought it,
den we realise it is the current advertisement watch.
doh. haha. but nice lo.
I still like big faces de.
but they say it is too big for my hand le.
sobsob.
Nevertheless, I still like this watch too.
Took some stupid pics.
haha. getting more and more "zi lian".
Oh ya. wanted to upload photos that we took on xinyan's birthday.
But I cannot save leh.
haiz. so sad.
Got home at ard 8 plus.
Nth to do.
check email. saw some bad things coming into my stupid mailbox.
hate it. but have to live with it.
suan le. den watch tv till 12plus.
sleep liao. hee.
Oh ya. I was nagging and toking crap to my ma.
Though I know she don know wad I am saying,
she is still there quietly listening my craps.
In the end, tell me to make my own decisions.
Thanks mum.
Morning was awoke by my phone,
colleague ask me wad is my decision.
I replied:
"Mmm. I don know if this is consider decision or not. I will stay with the company till May for part time as long as I am able to fork out the time for it. With regards to the US trip, I will leave it to boss to decide what is his choice as I still think that company's interest comes first. With regards to the internship, I will get boss to write a description as to wad he wan me to do and submit to the school, if they approve then I will start to research on it to see if it is possible. If yes, then I will take up the internship."
Yap. That is my decision with my limited time and knowledge.
I don know if I made the rite choice,
but at least for now,
I think this is the best I can think of.
Afterall, what she said is correct,
internship will only let you see how working life will be.
You won know what u will be doing there too.
True ba. THat's y since this is an accounting proj that boss wan to give me.
I shall take it up if my ability allows.
If not,I guess others should take it up then.
So yes, I may not be going US already.
Actually after what boss said,
I guess I should not go also.
I am relunctant now.
Leave to what he said ba.
Did I make the right choice,
I guess I will nv know till later of my life ba.
Tml result will be out.
Ok, I called the school to check out for the leave thingy.
and at the same time ask them la.
so they say it will release on Monday.
so best of luck guys.
Hope you guys get what you all want!
Good luck.
P.S. Thanks hubby for the watch. I love it.
Mmm. went out with hubby to go shopping.
tried a few clothes.
in the end, decided not to buy any.
coz no money liao. haha.
haven got my pay yet leh.
saw a few bags that is pretty nice.
Guess, DKNY etc. doh.
don have that kind of money to buy sia.
Anyway hubby bought me a Titus watch.
haa. after he bought it,
den we realise it is the current advertisement watch.
doh. haha. but nice lo.
I still like big faces de.
but they say it is too big for my hand le.
sobsob.
Nevertheless, I still like this watch too.
Took some stupid pics.
haha. getting more and more "zi lian".
Oh ya. wanted to upload photos that we took on xinyan's birthday.
But I cannot save leh.
haiz. so sad.
Got home at ard 8 plus.
Nth to do.
check email. saw some bad things coming into my stupid mailbox.
hate it. but have to live with it.
suan le. den watch tv till 12plus.
sleep liao. hee.
Oh ya. I was nagging and toking crap to my ma.
Though I know she don know wad I am saying,
she is still there quietly listening my craps.
In the end, tell me to make my own decisions.
Thanks mum.
Morning was awoke by my phone,
colleague ask me wad is my decision.
I replied:
"Mmm. I don know if this is consider decision or not. I will stay with the company till May for part time as long as I am able to fork out the time for it. With regards to the US trip, I will leave it to boss to decide what is his choice as I still think that company's interest comes first. With regards to the internship, I will get boss to write a description as to wad he wan me to do and submit to the school, if they approve then I will start to research on it to see if it is possible. If yes, then I will take up the internship."
Yap. That is my decision with my limited time and knowledge.
I don know if I made the rite choice,
but at least for now,
I think this is the best I can think of.
Afterall, what she said is correct,
internship will only let you see how working life will be.
You won know what u will be doing there too.
True ba. THat's y since this is an accounting proj that boss wan to give me.
I shall take it up if my ability allows.
If not,I guess others should take it up then.
So yes, I may not be going US already.
Actually after what boss said,
I guess I should not go also.
I am relunctant now.
Leave to what he said ba.
Did I make the right choice,
I guess I will nv know till later of my life ba.
Tml result will be out.
Ok, I called the school to check out for the leave thingy.
and at the same time ask them la.
so they say it will release on Monday.
so best of luck guys.
Hope you guys get what you all want!
Good luck.
P.S. Thanks hubby for the watch. I love it.
L . A . W . C . A . J
3:01:00 PM
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Note: This is a super long entry which is totally no link. Please do not read it if you find it boring. haha.
I have 2 weaknesses.
These 2 are very big weaknesses.
and I face it 2 days straight.
No 1: Unable to separate emotions and work
Everyone has to go thru this stage.
It depends when and how you are going thru this.
I go thru it in a hard way.
a way that I never expect myself to go thru.
even till now,
I should say I have not passed the test.
You may say it is so easy.
just hack whatever people say.
While trying standing in my position and you will know.
Being "taught" how to work in the public place is not a pleasant thing to have.
quoted by a Managing Director to me in front of our partner:
"We have recently engaged xxx to do this training, so far our relationship is STILL BUILDING UP. And we are TRYING TO IMPROVE ON IT."
Ok, apparently this guy has some problems with his stuff,
and being a "me" I choose to stick to rules that was given in US.
He suggest me to fake thru which my boss too do not agree.
Anyway this is what I got from him yesterday.
Haha. This did not end here.
Next, while I am feeling very uncomfortable regarding this and wanted to get out of this cocktail party.
He walked over and talked to my colleagues and me:
"Wee Ching you have to be flexible you know. I know it cannot be done, that's y I engaged you to find a solution, if not you think I need you meh. If they tell you cannot be done, you should have said, if the sales of 100K is not closed den the fault lies on YOU not ME. I am counting on you in this area leh. so muz be flexible, think out of the box. If always think inside the box, then no need to work liao."
Apprantly he was super loud.
Though there are songs ard. I guess ppl still hear it ba.
Ok. Haven end leh. But this part is more to me pressuring myself.
He went on stage to give a speech:
"When I saw you partners, I shivered man, coz you ppl are all clever and intelligence people. I am so happy to work with you guys. We grow together and we help each other. So just go ahead and agree with our end-users even if it cannot be settle. We can "settle" the case internally. Yes, go ppl!"
I know I din manage well the case.
and I am stupid that I sent out an email that should not be sent.
I learnt. Really Learnt.
But this hurdle is not over yet.
coz it will take days to absorb.
I can tell you, even now I hear his name or voice or his team,
I will pretend I din see anything.
For the fact that he will shot me anytime.
*shiver*
When things are not yet settled with my outsourced company,
internally sth happened.
That need my boss to clean up.
Yes. My boss is worried abt me after knowing what happened for the past weeks when he was having holiday with his family.
And we met up for dinner.
waited for him for nearly an hour.
coz got jam la and he just ended a meeting.
No 2: Don know how to voice out and make FIRM decision.
During the waiting time,
my colleague was talking about him.
I must really be thankful to her, Carolyn.
She really teach me alot.
and I am so sorry that she was sorta got shoot too by boss.
Yes, sort of review what we have done for the past 2 weeks when he is away.
He was quite "pleased" with the results.
judging on the ceteria "short term plan".
Current procedure is everything have to go thru me.
as I am the main coordinator of the project.
In fact I should not say project,
I am like a sold pdt to this company that y the previous weakness was spotted.
But I am supposed to leave by end of dec.
When nobody is supposed to know abt this,
and yet everybody is looking for me on this project.
How am I going to escape.
I am stuck. Yes. Stuck.
Now they are sending ppl to US for training.
To be familiar with what we do.
Who do you want to send.
My colleague suggested me going with her.
Boss agreed with her.
and come back to me to talk abt sth abt Finance project.
Cool rite. from one proj to another.
Now boss is back,
reviewing it, should I be the one really going US.
Even I doubt myself.
Not my ability, but my commitment to this job once I left.
Does it value add to both the outsourced company or my company.
Yes and No.
The fact that MNC is not favoring Outsourcing,
bringing me up there, will show that I am learning and how confident I am.
Afterall, as far as they know, they are coordinating with me.
On the other hand,
How long can I continued with this proj
or should I say how long can I stayed.
I need to go back to school.
I always have this doubt that y in the first place,
I rejected this offer of going US.
In the end, I was persuaded.
Now come to it, it is back to square one.
In fact even worst.
Brother wanted me to get an employment contract.
haha. boss said, employment contract is like a marriage.
Once you signed you got to fulfill it.
I will be happy to sign it if I am giving this contract to you.
But are you able to fulfill it?
I don know. Seriously I don know which field I am going at all.
He proposed doing my internship with me,
but it won be doing the same thing that I am doing,
it will be a new thing,
which is drawing up a finance project.
cool rite, but you know how to do meh.
doing it alone, do I have the ability to do it.
I don know. You dare to say yes meh.
for me, I don dare.
Especially I have no experiences in it.
Challenging but yet scary.
The trade off for this incident:-
attachment of a real accounting firm or attachment in my current company.
You never know what you will do during your interns.
you never know how much you gotta learn in your current company too.
But you can guarantee that you will learn sth from your current company,
esp on management of the company.
Are you guarantee of learning sth in your official attachments?
I don know.
Yes. too many Don know equate to no answer.
For it, the US trip,
it will be a good trip for me to experience.
but is it fair to the company.
that is my main concern.
so what is the decision.
as mentioned, my weakest point is:
I don dare to make any decision.
I have 2 weaknesses.
These 2 are very big weaknesses.
and I face it 2 days straight.
No 1: Unable to separate emotions and work
Everyone has to go thru this stage.
It depends when and how you are going thru this.
I go thru it in a hard way.
a way that I never expect myself to go thru.
even till now,
I should say I have not passed the test.
You may say it is so easy.
just hack whatever people say.
While trying standing in my position and you will know.
Being "taught" how to work in the public place is not a pleasant thing to have.
quoted by a Managing Director to me in front of our partner:
"We have recently engaged xxx to do this training, so far our relationship is STILL BUILDING UP. And we are TRYING TO IMPROVE ON IT."
Ok, apparently this guy has some problems with his stuff,
and being a "me" I choose to stick to rules that was given in US.
He suggest me to fake thru which my boss too do not agree.
Anyway this is what I got from him yesterday.
Haha. This did not end here.
Next, while I am feeling very uncomfortable regarding this and wanted to get out of this cocktail party.
He walked over and talked to my colleagues and me:
"Wee Ching you have to be flexible you know. I know it cannot be done, that's y I engaged you to find a solution, if not you think I need you meh. If they tell you cannot be done, you should have said, if the sales of 100K is not closed den the fault lies on YOU not ME. I am counting on you in this area leh. so muz be flexible, think out of the box. If always think inside the box, then no need to work liao."
Apprantly he was super loud.
Though there are songs ard. I guess ppl still hear it ba.
Ok. Haven end leh. But this part is more to me pressuring myself.
He went on stage to give a speech:
"When I saw you partners, I shivered man, coz you ppl are all clever and intelligence people. I am so happy to work with you guys. We grow together and we help each other. So just go ahead and agree with our end-users even if it cannot be settle. We can "settle" the case internally. Yes, go ppl!"
I know I din manage well the case.
and I am stupid that I sent out an email that should not be sent.
I learnt. Really Learnt.
But this hurdle is not over yet.
coz it will take days to absorb.
I can tell you, even now I hear his name or voice or his team,
I will pretend I din see anything.
For the fact that he will shot me anytime.
*shiver*
When things are not yet settled with my outsourced company,
internally sth happened.
That need my boss to clean up.
Yes. My boss is worried abt me after knowing what happened for the past weeks when he was having holiday with his family.
And we met up for dinner.
waited for him for nearly an hour.
coz got jam la and he just ended a meeting.
No 2: Don know how to voice out and make FIRM decision.
During the waiting time,
my colleague was talking about him.
I must really be thankful to her, Carolyn.
She really teach me alot.
and I am so sorry that she was sorta got shoot too by boss.
Yes, sort of review what we have done for the past 2 weeks when he is away.
He was quite "pleased" with the results.
judging on the ceteria "short term plan".
Current procedure is everything have to go thru me.
as I am the main coordinator of the project.
In fact I should not say project,
I am like a sold pdt to this company that y the previous weakness was spotted.
But I am supposed to leave by end of dec.
When nobody is supposed to know abt this,
and yet everybody is looking for me on this project.
How am I going to escape.
I am stuck. Yes. Stuck.
Now they are sending ppl to US for training.
To be familiar with what we do.
Who do you want to send.
My colleague suggested me going with her.
Boss agreed with her.
and come back to me to talk abt sth abt Finance project.
Cool rite. from one proj to another.
Now boss is back,
reviewing it, should I be the one really going US.
Even I doubt myself.
Not my ability, but my commitment to this job once I left.
Does it value add to both the outsourced company or my company.
Yes and No.
The fact that MNC is not favoring Outsourcing,
bringing me up there, will show that I am learning and how confident I am.
Afterall, as far as they know, they are coordinating with me.
On the other hand,
How long can I continued with this proj
or should I say how long can I stayed.
I need to go back to school.
I always have this doubt that y in the first place,
I rejected this offer of going US.
In the end, I was persuaded.
Now come to it, it is back to square one.
In fact even worst.
Brother wanted me to get an employment contract.
haha. boss said, employment contract is like a marriage.
Once you signed you got to fulfill it.
I will be happy to sign it if I am giving this contract to you.
But are you able to fulfill it?
I don know. Seriously I don know which field I am going at all.
He proposed doing my internship with me,
but it won be doing the same thing that I am doing,
it will be a new thing,
which is drawing up a finance project.
cool rite, but you know how to do meh.
doing it alone, do I have the ability to do it.
I don know. You dare to say yes meh.
for me, I don dare.
Especially I have no experiences in it.
Challenging but yet scary.
The trade off for this incident:-
attachment of a real accounting firm or attachment in my current company.
You never know what you will do during your interns.
you never know how much you gotta learn in your current company too.
But you can guarantee that you will learn sth from your current company,
esp on management of the company.
Are you guarantee of learning sth in your official attachments?
I don know.
Yes. too many Don know equate to no answer.
For it, the US trip,
it will be a good trip for me to experience.
but is it fair to the company.
that is my main concern.
so what is the decision.
as mentioned, my weakest point is:
I don dare to make any decision.
L . A . W . C . A . J
12:22:00 AM
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Yeah! Bought myself a pair of specs!
Dark Orange, or should I say is brown in colour leh?
Mmm. u guys will see one day de.
And Yes! My parents allowed me to go US le.
haha. now have to wait for my boss to approve to let me go.
now hor. abit worry abt other things.
I know i always got things to worry one de.
haiz. u know wad.
exam results is releasing soon.
and I am worried I da bao.
which i am expecting myself to la.
esp for my GE. Haiz. shit la.
i really very scare lo.
for core most likely won be.
won be so suay de rite.
worry this and that.
now my work. idiot lo.
so sudden wan to train in Dec.
which is one week later.
they think i god meh
now den say. doh.
hahaha~ Haiz. i going mad soon.
tell u guys again when i got time to update.
Dark Orange, or should I say is brown in colour leh?
Mmm. u guys will see one day de.
And Yes! My parents allowed me to go US le.
haha. now have to wait for my boss to approve to let me go.
now hor. abit worry abt other things.
I know i always got things to worry one de.
haiz. u know wad.
exam results is releasing soon.
and I am worried I da bao.
which i am expecting myself to la.
esp for my GE. Haiz. shit la.
i really very scare lo.
for core most likely won be.
won be so suay de rite.
worry this and that.
now my work. idiot lo.
so sudden wan to train in Dec.
which is one week later.
they think i god meh
now den say. doh.
hahaha~ Haiz. i going mad soon.
tell u guys again when i got time to update.
L . A . W . C . A . J
11:12:00 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005
currently in the office.
doing nth.
cause too lazy to do.
there is no one in the office!
except a few of coz.
coz today got an event at don know where.
we outsourced one won know de.
den of coz we din go.
so we were all left here.
and we are leaving the office soon.
after so many days of hard work.
today seems like a slacking day.
haaa~ while it is time to have some rest too.
Yesterday, my another boss asked us to go US for training.
in jan.
for goodness, I will be in school lo.
tempted to go.
but...don know how.
don know my boss wan me to go or not,
cause abit siao lo.
afterall I am just a temp.
Aiya, hack la. wait till they make the decision first.
den see how lo.
haaaaa~
Xmas is coming.
Yeah~~~ coz I am in an MNC,
that's y u will feel that it is somehow xmas already.
coz everyone is going on leave ard Asia Pac.
hahahaha. and I cannot schedule my training.
doh doh. hahahhahaahah...
today is a happy day..
and I wish everyday is a happy Day for me.
Meeting my hubby later for dinner...
heeee.
happy day..after so many scary days..
finally~
doing nth.
cause too lazy to do.
there is no one in the office!
except a few of coz.
coz today got an event at don know where.
we outsourced one won know de.
den of coz we din go.
so we were all left here.
and we are leaving the office soon.
after so many days of hard work.
today seems like a slacking day.
haaa~ while it is time to have some rest too.
Yesterday, my another boss asked us to go US for training.
in jan.
for goodness, I will be in school lo.
tempted to go.
but...don know how.
don know my boss wan me to go or not,
cause abit siao lo.
afterall I am just a temp.
Aiya, hack la. wait till they make the decision first.
den see how lo.
haaaaa~
Xmas is coming.
Yeah~~~ coz I am in an MNC,
that's y u will feel that it is somehow xmas already.
coz everyone is going on leave ard Asia Pac.
hahahaha. and I cannot schedule my training.
doh doh. hahahhahaahah...
today is a happy day..
and I wish everyday is a happy Day for me.
Meeting my hubby later for dinner...
heeee.
happy day..after so many scary days..
finally~
L . A . W . C . A . J
3:43:00 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Don't fight with a hungry girl!
That's me!
Don't fight with a sick girl!
That's again me!
I am super duper angry.
People who wants to go MNC.
Please be sure u made the right choice.
I am damn bloody angry with it.
People shot you said that you are not flexible,
when they received an email THEMSELVES from the HQ
mentioning that IT CANNOT BE DONE!
And now they come in and shot me!
What the hell is this.
I am not a ball.
I am just a outsourced Training Manager.
Who the hell are that you can do this to me.
when you and I are supposed to have a partner relationship.
so what I am NEW.
I still do my job and do my part.
It is not that I have appeal to the HQ.
THEY REPLIED IN A SACA WAY TOO!!!!!
Now you cannot get it,
you come and bother me!
So What you are the Sales Director
who are much older than me!
in fact super old and have been dealing with ppl.
this is how you treat the internal ppl.
I am sorry but I have to YELL!!!
I hate it when I opened my mailbox and kana scold for NO BLOODY REASON!
I know I am being affected.
VErY Affected.
coz I am sick and anger took over me.
IDiot!!!
ANd for god sake,
how can I just fall like that.
Falling gives me blue black.
Ok. Talk abt sth good.
I finally received the PO and closed.
Wait for the logistics and money will come in.
US$12400. Though this is also another sickening case,
at least it brings in revenue for my team.
at least it is worth it.
Damn ANgrY!!
That's me!
Don't fight with a sick girl!
That's again me!
I am super duper angry.
People who wants to go MNC.
Please be sure u made the right choice.
I am damn bloody angry with it.
People shot you said that you are not flexible,
when they received an email THEMSELVES from the HQ
mentioning that IT CANNOT BE DONE!
And now they come in and shot me!
What the hell is this.
I am not a ball.
I am just a outsourced Training Manager.
Who the hell are that you can do this to me.
when you and I are supposed to have a partner relationship.
so what I am NEW.
I still do my job and do my part.
It is not that I have appeal to the HQ.
THEY REPLIED IN A SACA WAY TOO!!!!!
Now you cannot get it,
you come and bother me!
So What you are the Sales Director
who are much older than me!
in fact super old and have been dealing with ppl.
this is how you treat the internal ppl.
I am sorry but I have to YELL!!!
I hate it when I opened my mailbox and kana scold for NO BLOODY REASON!
I know I am being affected.
VErY Affected.
coz I am sick and anger took over me.
IDiot!!!
ANd for god sake,
how can I just fall like that.
Falling gives me blue black.
Ok. Talk abt sth good.
I finally received the PO and closed.
Wait for the logistics and money will come in.
US$12400. Though this is also another sickening case,
at least it brings in revenue for my team.
at least it is worth it.
Damn ANgrY!!
L . A . W . C . A . J
9:46:00 PM
Sunday, December 04, 2005
My whole family is sick.
cannot believe it.
think the recent weather is the baddie.
haa~ think I am also too.
Maybe due to overwork or not enough slp.
I tried slping leh.
but apparently it does not work.
It will turn out to be thinking of stuff.
work and others.
yes. pretty gone case.
feeling cold. Blurrrrr~
so everyone take care ok.
yesterday shopping.
look at some of the stuff.
but din buy at all.
feel like slping only.
haa. in the end come back work again.
pretty sad life.
haa~ Gotta prepare to "quit" also don know when.
shall start thinking abt it.
coz planning of resources is very impt in a company.
and yes of course,
got to think whether is this wad I want in the future?
thinking hard.
anybody got answer for me.
muz enlighten me sia.
cannot believe it.
think the recent weather is the baddie.
haa~ think I am also too.
Maybe due to overwork or not enough slp.
I tried slping leh.
but apparently it does not work.
It will turn out to be thinking of stuff.
work and others.
yes. pretty gone case.
feeling cold. Blurrrrr~
so everyone take care ok.
yesterday shopping.
look at some of the stuff.
but din buy at all.
feel like slping only.
haa. in the end come back work again.
pretty sad life.
haa~ Gotta prepare to "quit" also don know when.
shall start thinking abt it.
coz planning of resources is very impt in a company.
and yes of course,
got to think whether is this wad I want in the future?
thinking hard.
anybody got answer for me.
muz enlighten me sia.
L . A . W . C . A . J
12:55:00 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
haha~ huishan!!!
I completed the fish tale leh.
haaa... only got 15 rounds.
and i completed it!
a boost on my spirit!
coz this shows that I can be slow and steady.
haa~ crap. yap. I received some emails from US.
doh. now that the others are copied in the loop.
let's hope that they don come and bark me.
haiz. I feel like going on war man.
war with ppl and work!
Got to prepare presentation again.
for work of course.
but i only doing outline.
my colleague will do the others.
will do it later.
I am going out with my hubby later.
to buy stuffs again.
think when ppl are stressed.
you tend to be buying and buying.
if not is eating and eating.
and I don have mood to eat at all.
thanks ppl who are concerned.
I am fine liao.
guess I learn to take things easy these days.
and of course with you guys ard.
I feel much more better.
esp when ppl are supporting.
thanks.
I completed the fish tale leh.
haaa... only got 15 rounds.
and i completed it!
a boost on my spirit!
coz this shows that I can be slow and steady.
haa~ crap. yap. I received some emails from US.
doh. now that the others are copied in the loop.
let's hope that they don come and bark me.
haiz. I feel like going on war man.
war with ppl and work!
Got to prepare presentation again.
for work of course.
but i only doing outline.
my colleague will do the others.
will do it later.
I am going out with my hubby later.
to buy stuffs again.
think when ppl are stressed.
you tend to be buying and buying.
if not is eating and eating.
and I don have mood to eat at all.
thanks ppl who are concerned.
I am fine liao.
guess I learn to take things easy these days.
and of course with you guys ard.
I feel much more better.
esp when ppl are supporting.
thanks.
L . A . W . C . A . J
12:00:00 PM
I really cannot managed stress.
I certainly agreed with it.
I know I cannot.
haiz. today something happened.
politics is always not very good.
esp when you are in MNC.
Sometimes ppl juz got to be there,
and play this kind of stuff with you.
now they played it in another way round.
by treating u very good and push u ard.
yes. don think so hard.
cannot means cannot la.
no pt pushing yourself so hard.
I know I am a perfectionist.
yes. I am.
But I also learn.
I learn today that I cannot look at it so narrowly.
juz treat it like a job.
there are always rules and procedures that you have to hock on.
cannot possibly change everything rite ma.
I learn.
but how long can it last.
I don know.
back to my work.
buai~
I certainly agreed with it.
I know I cannot.
haiz. today something happened.
politics is always not very good.
esp when you are in MNC.
Sometimes ppl juz got to be there,
and play this kind of stuff with you.
now they played it in another way round.
by treating u very good and push u ard.
yes. don think so hard.
cannot means cannot la.
no pt pushing yourself so hard.
I know I am a perfectionist.
yes. I am.
But I also learn.
I learn today that I cannot look at it so narrowly.
juz treat it like a job.
there are always rules and procedures that you have to hock on.
cannot possibly change everything rite ma.
I learn.
but how long can it last.
I don know.
back to my work.
buai~
L . A . W . C . A . J
12:14:00 AM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
I am so bloody angry!
this stupid customer.
i tot i stay in the office to wait for this bloody thingy
and yet it is....
stupid hell.
the voice mail say
"Hi, I am blah blah blah.
and I will only be back by 6 Dec"
By the time i receive it
i think I will be dead meat.
qi si le!
this stupid customer.
i tot i stay in the office to wait for this bloody thingy
and yet it is....
stupid hell.
the voice mail say
"Hi, I am blah blah blah.
and I will only be back by 6 Dec"
By the time i receive it
i think I will be dead meat.
qi si le!
L . A . W . C . A . J
10:19:00 PM
I am still in the office.
doh. trying to clear my stuff before I leave.
and it is never-ending.
diaoz. tml there will be another training coming up.
hopefully can pass thru it with a breeze.
haiz. and for the time being.
I am only standing in.
aiyo. life is abit difficult for me sia.
haa~
Haven eat my dinner yet.
I feel so bad on
my hubby,
Amazing Race team,
my family and friends.
coz I haven been able to have a nice chat with them since monday.
Really hope that wad I do is worth it.
So sorry to you guys.
I will make up de.
really wor.
Ya. going back to home soon
of coz with supper first.
haa. I am so shagged.
Jia you! tml is friday!
doh. trying to clear my stuff before I leave.
and it is never-ending.
diaoz. tml there will be another training coming up.
hopefully can pass thru it with a breeze.
haiz. and for the time being.
I am only standing in.
aiyo. life is abit difficult for me sia.
haa~
Haven eat my dinner yet.
I feel so bad on
my hubby,
Amazing Race team,
my family and friends.
coz I haven been able to have a nice chat with them since monday.
Really hope that wad I do is worth it.
So sorry to you guys.
I will make up de.
really wor.
Ya. going back to home soon
of coz with supper first.
haa. I am so shagged.
Jia you! tml is friday!
L . A . W . C . A . J
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