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Saturday, June 30, 2007
New Chapter of Life
I guess at this stage, everyone is going into their new chapter of their life. Primary School to Secondary School. Secondary School to Junior College/Poly. JC/Poly to University. Poly/University to the Working Society. Realized one thing, there isn't many choices we can make in the cycle mentioned above. Or maybe the schools that we decide is some kind of a choice? Yes they are ba.
Somehow, when the decision to work in which sector, which industry, which company etc comes. I am really lost. Really indecisive. I am someone who are indecisive on things. or maybe I have decided just that I don want to face the fact? Been pondering many things this few days.
The decision to leave PA. (maybe I am right. hehe.) The decision to take up a job in KPMG. (where everyone tells me I am nuts? but am I really mad? ) The decision to allow them to decide which industry that I should start. (when I always wanted to go IT audit and not general audit) The decision not to voice out that I want to go GFS. (where ppl says how good the opportunities are in Banks)
All and all, these are pressure that I give myself. for nth of course. bleh! I guess everyone have to go thru this stage. Maybe this is wad we call the transiting stage. where everyone will feel such a way? (maybe I am the only one. haha!) especially when work is nearing one day by one day.
The uncertainty of what is going to happen is so strong this time. It is so strong that you don't feel secure at all. Note: This are symptoms for new chapter of life.
I must say I have yet officially step out of that "transiting stage" But I am slowly one step by one step leaving the place. It takes time. And we cannot skip that stage at all. I am trying my best though. haha! Sound so serious. But yeah. It may be serious ba.
Cleared my table today. Ok. After so long I know. I realized I really "bu she de" throw away stuff sia. My JC notes is still ard. But in order to move forward, (and not be a rubbish chute) I throw away some of the notes of course. They are memories. Of course there are good and bad. but they are always in my mind. So now I have space on the table for my new chapter of life. haha! They can be on the table first. then be my memories ba. :) I am looking forward to it. I guess.
L . A . W . C . A . J 12:27:00 PM
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Today is Sunday!
Ended my work on Wednesday. Went over to hubby's hse and nua for the whole day on Thursday. So Friday is the day I have been waiting for! hahahaha! MJ! Yeah. Thanks for Yujia's planning. So I got my MJ after 4 to 5 months sia. Had the game with Timo and Vivian. Headed to Bedok 85 to have dinner cum supper. can imagine how long we played sia. Wonder when the next MJ will come man.
Sat was with the girls. celebrating Angela's bday. Her present really difficult to find lo! find so many places and ask so many ppl. bleh! In the end bought it at yishun. diaoz. haha. Had our dinner at the Bosses. Chinese Name: Hai She Hui. haha! Quite a nice place to go I think. Then went white dog cafe for cakes and drinks. Wonderful meal. which means another fattening day lo. All the fats that I shed 3 days ago come back again..haha!
Nua-ing is the thing that I have been doing since Wed. Really contradicting. I wanted to rest. but the more I sleep the more I am tired? funny lo. nth seems to interest me sia. oh well...that's life...
Many are starting work tml. PWC batch 1! Everyone jiayou yea! :)
Currently watching 换换爱 Why Why Love. Ok la. Not too bad. can kill time. hehe.
L . A . W . C . A . J 8:53:00 PM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Constipated...blah!
Had dinner with sh,sab, guo zhan and yewei on Friday. or rather we had separate dinner. *keke* anyway though there is a hiccup, due to some unhappiness that I had in work (refer to previous entry), and was brought forward to that dinner. *opps* the dinner was ok la. Had quite a laughter cum serious chat with them.
A few topics that come in was! Constipation! Stomach flu etc. OMG. I really don understand how come people always got prob with health. I mean myself la! It has always been a serious problem especially for me. since I am always constipated. Recently one of my friend mother passed away. partly due to constipation. because of some toxic when you are constipated. So hubby was damn worried abt me. Not that i am kua zhang. but yeah. please take care of yourself. eat more fruits, eat more vegetables. have regular meals is super impt! because our body is very sensitive one wor. Have been taking alot of fruits these days. guess is due to at home got bai bai. haha. so I eat lo. and it really helps. though I feel bloated at times. it is much more better now. so people take care.
Next topic. abt work. I think we are really going into the next step of our life. into the working society. frankly, I don know what will happen to everyone of us. but I sincerely hope that everyone got what they want. find a job that they like. though it is difficult. i am sure that we are able to find one that we like somehow. maybe we shall try the job first before determining if it is what we like. so I seriously hope that auditing is really my cup of tea. *though I seriously don think so. opps. hehe* Yeah. and no matter where we go, there is definitely stress ard us. so bear with it ba. it is not the stress that cause us so much problem. the way of managing it will ultimately result the way we had stress. so meeting up is seriously a way of relieving stress yea.
For guys who are studying. cause there are guys that we met ba. Glad to see that those are coping well. and I hope that for those who are not. don be sad. persevere is what you need. though nobody will read my entry. it serves as a noting for myself too. cause no matter where we go. we need to be determine in what we do. Jiayou! Jiayou! Jiayou!
Seems like everyone of us is growing up. to count, we have know each other (in JC de) for almost 5 years! and it is still going. :) May everyone be blessed!
L . A . W . C . A . J 2:04:00 PM
Friday, June 15, 2007
Who I really am? (for myself)
Ok. This week is the worst week ever. I am super annoyed with many many many things. all minor things can just accumulate to a big annoying stuff.
About myself. I am a person who is very straight in words. People may think that I am too frank. but those who knows me well enough knows that I am stating facts when I am straight. being objective and not subjective. So if I have "hit" you somewhere. Please bear with me yea. *hehe* but please reflect yourself somewhere too. I may regret what I said. Maybe too harsh or what. But I take pride and seriousness on what I said. *bleh*
I am someone who cares alot for my friends. Some may even think that I am over protective, or being kpo sometimes. Some even tend to put an arms length b/w relationship. But I really cared for people. I tried to help if you need help. All I hope is that you know that I am with you as long as you need me.
BUT BUT BUT. I NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER ask you to follow my advice. I gives suggestions to ppl when ppl needs help. and I share with people my experiences. BUT I nv think that I am correct all the time. I am ok with you not agreeing with me. I am ok with you not following what I mentioned.
So please don come and said that I follow what you said coz u are more experienced than me. and I am giving you more problems. I nv said you must follow wad I said. You must take ownership and responsibilities of your own work. and not blaming it to me, and mind you I don think I am wrong at all. coz I consult people more experienced than me before suggesting to you. When I go an extra mile. people don sees it. it really hurts.....it hurts alot....
EQ vs IQ I must admit that I do not have a really high IQ. But I think at least I have a balanced of both IQ and EQ. I can accept people for who they are. I admired people who are smarter than me. BUT i admired even more for those who are humble and is able to do work efficiently. and not telling their superior who is younger that this should not be done. We respect each other. But there is no needs to feel superior because of your academic grades. EQ is really really very impt in working. I may not be fantastic in my EQ. But at least I know where I should stop. ponder and listen to others' opinion. I really reflect and learn for the better. So I hope others too.
Calling is part and parcel of work. Please do not think that calling is an inferior job. It is not. maybe you may not like it. but we got to live with it. Not complaining it.
Oh well. Maybe I am annoying you. Treat that I am crapping ba. Finally released my disappointment, anger & sadness.
L . A . W . C . A . J 11:25:00 PM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Blogging
I always remind myself to blog. and I always wanted to blog. But then hor. Very lazy to blog. haha. Now got too much to blog. Don know where to start. so short short ba.
Met up with Marcus on Thursday night @ AMK. Had dinner, chat and walk ard. oh yeah. we tried WHATEVER. because I tried twice. realized that everytime I got Peach Tea. So decided to try again see if they got cheat me or not. haha. Marcus got peach again. diaoz. and I got apply tea! finally man. But then apple one tea very strong leh. Fun chit chatting yea. And I got another free meal again....hehehehe.
Yeap. Finally Graduated on Friday. Relieved. Disappointed. Blessed. Alot of mixed feelings. But then it's over! and everyone graduated! so happy for all. had a wonderful dinner with hubby at nite. :)
Sat went out with ada, jm, linghui and candice. walked ard shop for clothes eat. haha. Received a graduated card from ada. I really feel so sweet and blessed. thanks girl.
Today was another stay at home day. watch huan zhu ge ge. hehe. started on Part 2 liaoz. abit bo liaoz. but nth to do ma. so watch tv lo. hehehe.
For the past 1 week. I got serious constipation. now still feeling constipated. diaoz. bleh!
L . A . W . C . A . J 10:14:00 PM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Before I go to bed...
Yeah. While waiting for my hair to dry. I shall blog. cause nth to do. bleh! hahaha!
In the end, I went YJ with Shihua instead of MeiYing. Diaoz. Don ask me why. Sudden MIA lo. bleh. The no. of people in the event is really can count de lo. I mean use fingers can count how many ppl. so pathetic. really need to improve on it man. We stayed quite long. and my senior from CCS proposed a play outside school. So interesting. hopefully it will come man! :)
Meet hubby after that. ate Mac! so happy. coz the shaker fries nice. hehe. then was the Superman 3. I know we are late. but then the cinema is almost full house lo. and I almost sleep halfway. there is this part which I think is really not very good la. but well. overall ok show. Prefer the first 2 though.
Then walk ard the places. to find some formal clothes. haiz. Finally settled down with only one suit which cost 159. damn ex. and I need to find more. haiz. Damn broke now sia. bleh. Must get cheap cheap de. I saw the zara and mango suit so nice. but super ex. :(
It is really long since we really walk ard like that. without thinking to go home early. no need to worry abt school work. blah blah blah.
I hate SHOES! No matter wad type it is. I hate them. cause no matter wad I wear. I always got blisters everywhere. no matter how causal the shoes are. haiz. I am bad in dolling up myself. and now the things that I got is torturing me. bleh. suay.
Oh. Hubby got the exxon job le. good reputation. good pay. but dangerous job. diaoz. But still don know the pay yet. coz they revising the pay. Glad that he got the job he wants. :) and he said he is going to miss his current team. oh well...when it is times to go... it is time to go ba...
Results going to be out in another 3 days time. super anxious sia. worried and excited. the last time that I got results from NTU le.
Work is as usual sian. or rather. I don know where is my motivation. maybe is really PMS ba. diaoz.
Hair almost dried. Time for bed.
L . A . W . C . A . J 11:33:00 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
Excited? Anxious? All of it? Angry?
It has been so long since I blog man! Okay. Currently having mixed feelings. many things to blog. but I don know start from where. oh well as usual. today I was kana shot by my boss. though I think he don mean it. esp that is the usual way of him doing things. then again, I am still abit pissed. for a while only. haha. afterall it is no big deal. bleh.
then come sian feeling. coz I am super broke. and the sian is times by don know how many times. when I look at the dress code for work. haiz. I think all my wardrobe don qualify. which means that I need to buy many pairs of pants. and not to say tops. and jackets? or should I say blazer. bleh!
Then the lazy feeling come in. when I need to get my academic gown blah blah. the worst is results will be out on 8 June! which is like next Friday! damn scary sia. Don know how it will turn out be. no matter wad the results are, I just hope I graduate man. hahahaha! den I will have all the emotional feelings coming up. like the 3 years memories... say short not very short.. say long also not very long. but I really must say I grew alot. hehe.
Oh yea. tml is celebrating our 5 years 5 months. long? nope? ok la. exciting? hahaha. coz going to shop. when I am super broke... see the mixed feelings here.
and there is YJ alumni event tml. go back don know do wad. but nv go back I will feel bad. so I decided to go back. haha. for a while ba. then here comes.. I need to go to the bank. to settle some stuff... when people are broke... money problems just come... damn...hahaha! don worry be lucky ba!
Till then another blog entry. I am still having flu. the bug is damn strong man. bah.