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Sunday, May 27, 2007
The worst weekend ever
It was supposed to be packed with events. with facial, shopping, MJ, mum's bday celebration. But I cancel everything. coz I was down with the irritating fever. The worst ever. I nv had fever for quite sometime le lo. I mean high temp fever. this time...38.7! that was on Friday. is abit siao siao lo. think my brain is burnt.
There goes my sat. with sleeping thru out the day. I think I am awake for 5 hours in total yesterday. it was bad. and to think that the temp is not down by alot. Yesterday was peak at 37.9! then u feel cold. feel hot at different time. damn bad. the doctor says it is kinda common now. the flu is getting worst. many ppl tio sia. diaoz! and I got a jab!!!!! damn. though not pain. still hate the feeling of taking a jab.
Oh yea. today. ok. I am awake most of the time now. I think I gotta make myself awake, if not I will feel not very good. the temp is back to 38.4. damn. seems like the temp is not going down at all. but beats me. I guess I am feeling alot better compared to the the past 2 days. judging that I am online today. and able to blog. the past 2 days was hell la. I jus don wan to do anything at all lo.
So sorry for those whom I actually have a date with. feel esp guilty for MJ. Coz I initiate it. but then I break it. stupid sickness. blah! take care ppl! the weather is simply bad! bah.
L . A . W . C . A . J 1:06:00 PM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Disappointment
Nowadays I think that I have been seeing so much disappointment, that I feel immune to it. Do I? Today is yet another disappointment. Really should said that I don know how people look at things. or rather are people age like 21 matured enough to start working the society. are people just too pampered that they don know wad is working all abt.
Ok. I may be being too biased to say all are like that. but really. we must really really think then act. and think RESPONSIBLY not SELF CENTERED. I don want and think that I should not revealed on the blog. after all it does not reflect good on the person, and at the same time maybe the school? But really, I think it is high time that the school teach people on expectation. irregardless where u are from, no matter wad grades you are... everyone should know that you have to work for respect. start by learning. expect the job that you are doing is part of learning. and not thinking that I am not in the position to do it. coz everyone does it in their job. and mind you. wad I say is calling. Please do not think that marketing is just a desk bound job. almost 75% of the marketing people needs to do at least 70% of cold calling when they are new in the industry. So please don think that calling is not your job. it is only that maybe cold calling starts to reduce as you goes up. but that does not mean that you don have to it. Expectation really have to adjust... not everything is so nice as it is.. we just got to learn and accept it.
Ok. enough said. This is to remind myself not to be like this. blah! disappointed.
L . A . W . C . A . J 10:48:00 PM
Monday, May 21, 2007
No title
No title for this entry. too much on my mind. wanna blog but don know where to start. so I shall start on, I went to the zoo on sat!!!! hahaha! It has been so long since I went to the zoo. one year ago? hehe. It has changed quite abit leh. so glad I went to the zoo lo. hehehe. oh yea. and we got a place to upload photos. super funny for the process to get that name. ululu.ah! group...it's our grp name! hehe.
Feeling pretty tired. mentally tired. physically mmm..maybe ba. Maybe work has been making feel kinda sick. but then I am not stressed! so people, pls do not worry abt me. I'm fine. :) Just that I may seems rather quiet nowadays. and rather detached from things. and not online as often.
coz I don know wad to talk abt these days. and I don wan to comment on the wrong things. I just wanna stay quiet sometimes. coz staying quiet helps ur mind to generate some constructive thoughts. and i have been facing the computer for more than 8 hrs a day. and I am sick of the computer. so I usually come home. online a while den phoof. I am gone! so sorry for not talking to my usual kaki. you know who you are... and I know you understand..haha!
Meet up with many ppl recently. start with linghui and angela. goes on to JC class is shihua and sab. Yewei for review of policy. :( then is shao. follow by shihua, xy, huishan and qiqi. den is Adalene today! People pls take care of yourself k. and there are tons of ppl I have yet to meet up with. omg. I miss my friends... and of course I get to meet up with my hubby too. coz I have been nagging that he din company me enough. :( now also not enough. bleh! haha. though I know he has been with me whenever he is on off day. hehe. still not enough ma. :( nobody wan to company me de. bleh!
see. I am ok. I am fine. I just need a clear and objective mind. to think of work.
*being too objective or too emotional? oh well...that is for me to think, for you to see. tata!
L . A . W . C . A . J 10:28:00 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Random
Don know wad to blog abt. Too many or too little things on my mind le. slack! haha! oh well...life goes on.
Learning to be objective seems difficult. feeling abit extreme as times goes by. Trying my best to handle whatever things that come. But "put down the bottle and rest a while" is a must.
Tomorrow is always another day. And the day will be best if you look at it positively. :)
L . A . W . C . A . J 10:04:00 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Yawnx
Was out at nite yesterday. with Carolyn. She just got back from Batam. Went over to quite a few places before we settled down at lower seletar. No place liaoz. Had a long chat. like 4 hours? haha! got home at 2.50 am. super duper tired.
Then the next morning. I cannot wake up at all. practically sleep the whole day. and I am feeling so so tired. I don know y sia. maybe I sleep too much? haha!
Haiz. tml is monday le! I dread going to work. the first time in my whole PA life. I actually dread. ok. the last time is when I make a mistake. now I hate the way it is operated.
I want to get out of Singapore. But I don have money. How I wish... anywhere...just out of Singapore can? I miss my hubby. :(
L . A . W . C . A . J 9:54:00 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Lunch with my brother & Sister-in-law
Mmm. yea. we went Botak Jones today. so the food is nice, big portion. cannot finished. guess coz i am still not feeling too well. and maybe coz yesterday eat too much. haha! the fish & chips are nice. but don ever try the chicken wing. nth fantastic.
Yeah. chatted quite abit with them. my brother says he wanna study Master. Make me think of studying also. study Msc TIP. But then the requirement really turn me off. bleh! got to write essay blah blah. But the coursework is so interesting. maybe shall try applying next application de. which is end of this year.
Then went bai bai with them. and to the National library. Kinda great to be reading again. find it super contradicting. I nv stepped into the lib as often as last time. when I am studying.
Funny thing is I am reading chinese novels. romance of course. while reading it. find it pretty sad. and realised there is simply too many unpredictable things ard. ok they are just stories.
today I become rather moody in the evening. cause I realised I haven been meeting hubby as often as we do last time. kinda feel very sad. when ppl ask me. sat not going out with hubby meh. haiz. Not that I don wan. but he really not free. Somehow add on to his stress ba. he kinda sian too.. thinking of ways to make me feel better... thanks hubby.. I feel better...I believe we can make more time for each other de. :)
Received KPMG letter. will be starting work on 4 July, Wed. Reason is there will be some program ba. that's y it is not on Monday. I think they really know me sia. they actually send a brochure telling us the dress code. basically is suit la! and yes lo. got to spend money on buying clothes again. I don feel like a girl at all. coz i don like to go shopping. hahahaha! I grow fat. :(
L . A . W . C . A . J 10:12:00 PM
Dinner with 203 girls
haha! actually not alot of us lo. only 3 nia. ok la. is full attendance le leh. coz Trang is in vietnam now. and yuan yuan is in Canada now. omg. haha. Hope you guys are enjoying life there!
Yeap. We had dinner at marina square. Jap food. Nice. Hehe. Hope you girls like my recommendation. Had a great chat. and know some surprises. hehe. It has been so long since we catch up and chat le. Hope it would be more often man. haha.
Met wendy (grp A) and SK at Marina too. haha. So long nv see liaoz. also talk abit lo. hehe.. realised that I haven been catching up with ppl sia. Hope to meet up real soon man!
Really don wan to talk abt work. Just let me die softly. haha! crap. Just say nia la. I am thinking positive u know. hehe. be objective. be positive.
L . A . W . C . A . J 12:23:00 AM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
I finished 碧血剑 serial liao! hehe. 35 episodes lo. Coz yesterday was on MC. so watched the rest of 15 epi I think. the whole day. Ok. I got rest enough too. Feeling better now. Though I still feel giddy. I think it is the weather that is giving me prob. at one time you feel hot. den when u stepped into the room. it is air conditioned. and people are falling sick nowadays. So take care ppl. :)
After finishing the serial cum the novel. I feel lost again. coz nth to look forward anymore. Haiz. I want to watch tv!!!! But there seems no show to watch leh. Can anyone introduce me??
Work has been usual. Work Work Work. I starts to feel lost there. coz it is no longer the way I feel. I still love my company. But I don understand the rational of everything. the rational that he does things. Haiz. Feel rather sad and bad abt it.
L . A . W . C . A . J 10:22:00 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
I don see my limitation at all. If only I see it. I would take the "act big" role. and made mistakes. The worst thing could happen just happened. I don care abt myself. I am just worry abt giving other ppl problem. Maybe I should not care abt everything. when I am not in the position to make decisions. Maybe is the ego that cause all this. I am just not the one who is doing work. I feel bad. But there is nth I can do. I guess, what is done is done. I just have to live with it. and learn how to handle situation again. when people change, handling tactics change. Or am I being biased against stuff. Maybe I am. Maybe I am just thinking ways to push blame to others. Feeling damn bad now....
L . A . W . C . A . J 9:29:00 PM
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Random
Yeah! Peeps who are going overseas! Enjoy your holidays yea. Seems like everyone is leaving on the same day lo. But still enjoy the wonderful trip ahead. :)
When I started working, the virus came to me. I am down with fever and worst, sore throat which I really hate. Plus occasionally sneezing. Just hope that I will recover before the week starts again.
Work has been like that lo. Busy yet not busy. Given a task to do. I think there are things that needs more thinking than doing. I guess it takes more time to think and plan how to do. than the time you are actually doing it.
For sth like this. I guess I really need a lot of time to handle it. I am glad that all my colleagues are helping me. And I finally aga know how to go ahead of doing it, when I was forced to sit down and plan the weekly plan and monthly plan. Yeah. Guess it is how work is like ba. Jia You Jia You Jia You.
Had a wonderful dinner with hubby yesterday. he actually says I wear very ugly. bah. coz he wear very nice ma. haha! and he is working OT today nite shift somemore. Will be meeting him in half an hr time. at his home though. can play wild arms. and I think to sleep ba. coz I am really very tired... Guess I am lack of sleep ba.
L . A . W . C . A . J 10:43:00 AM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
First Day of Work
Loaded with information. Meetings from 9 to 6.30pm. of course a slightly longer lunch time. coz my first day ma. I also need to adapt to the environment k. though I am there for 2 years le?! haha. Yeah. Great to see my colleagues again. But work is alot to do. planning, planning and planning! 7 weeks to complete my project.
One thing I realised today. I think I like to be alone. after one whole day of all interaction, suddenly alone time seems pretty impt for me. I think that is the time I can really think abt work again. bleh! I feel that I am someone with no life. as what linghui they all say.
Had dinner with linghui and angela. Nice Chat! makes me feel relax... I guess I see what will I be doing for the next 2 years. what my life will be...haha! no life. bah.
L . A . W . C . A . J 10:48:00 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Last day of Holiday
I am starting work tml le. bleh. but I will make sure I won MIA k. haha! So I can meet with people.
Today finally meet up with Johnny. He is leaving for US liaoz. Ok. Alot ppl going US lo. Sherlynn, YingXin, Pauline, Danny, Ben and Barry too. Bleh. Barry leave without informing! the rest, I guess really no time to meet up. But take care guys. If u happen to read this entry.
Yea. Today's meet up is rather a funny combi. coz Wendy came all the way from West to Northpoint today! haha. Still got Bingliang, Kelvin and Sichao. Had a great 3 hours chat with them. Really enjoyed it.
Only at the very last min, then decided to take out the camera. When only left wendy,johnny and me. hehehe!
Take care All yEah! Will see you guys when u are back! :)
Waiting for bus. Say cheese!
When the bus 969 is already in front of us! hahaha!